Monday, February 14, 2011
What a load of sentimental bullshit.
I say this because, come on. Love doesn't last forever. We all know that. What's the point of celebrating a holiday that honors relationships that won't last?
I think I'm just bitter from being alone. When I see people I know making out in the hallways at school, I feel a pang of jealousy. At my cousin's wedding last week, I realized how lonely I am as I watched the newlyweds dance.
What is it that I want in a man? Loving, someone to talk to (about movies, of course), humble, gentle and sweet are the personality traits I want him to have. For appearance, I want him to be tall, a little rugged, have dark hair and eyes, maybe wear glasses and have a warm smile. That's all I want.
I hoped to have someone in my life before college, but seeing as I'm graduating in June that seems really unlikely. I mean, a few guys have pursued me, but they were just joking around. Maybe I'll get lucky in college.
My life just feels so empty. I need someone to make it worthwhile.